Sorry about that cryptic last post. I was sad and feeling a little sat upon, but in reality things are that bad.
Long story short... I had a PI/lab I fell for completely. And I am still offered a position there, but after he already took one first year student with great enthusiasm, I realized that the tide of his lab is changing and I really wanted to work with his lab a few years ago. I don't want to be a straggler, hanging on to this project when no one else is interested in it. It was a rough wake up call, but probably good that it happened now and not a couple years into it. I am still talking with him and will vent all my concerns on Thursday and see if he completely disagrees with my interpretation of his lab.
Also, got an offer from the PI am working with now, which is great, but I am concerned that my heart isn't really into his science and there are a couple of great girls who really want to be in his lab.. so I need to think long and hard about that.
In the mean time, I am trying to put together an awesome rotation report, am meeting with some professors in other departments whose work I loved and lectures I enjoyed in my cell biology class.
Not the end of the world, as you can see, but it was still hard to not be picked first and to lose that "PI on a Podium" I tend to get.
Friday we rode bikes to a happy hour at a bar and to a graduate student's defense party. It was really fun, and quite an adventure riding bikes around in the dark, but my heart wasn't into it.
Saturday was pretty rainy and stormy. Many these Southern storms are incredible!! I still get way freaked out by how close the lightening sounds! During a dry bit, I went on a new friend date with a friend's wife to lunch and to the local wine store for wine tasting. Moped around the rest of the afternoon.
Sunday I was done moping and ready to get something done. Unfortunately it was Sunday so nobody was responding to emails, but I tend to deal with being stressed out by exercising, so we went on a long bike ride (absolutely gorgeous, so green and pleasant after the rain) and then a long run in the evening. Luckily by box of Ryka clothes came from generous sister Emily, so I had plenty of workout gear. Awesome stuff, I love the shoes!! I worked hard on my powerpoint presentation and am ready for this week and all it's tough decisions. Or so I hope!